Changes

"You try hard to convince me that you have changed in only a week or so. I would be expecting you to not sacrifice yourself for a stupid and self-destructive reason. But, in reality, do we ever change? If you ever taught me anything is that people never change and everybody lies... Unfortunately, words hurt, but the lack of them is much worse. I try hard to meet every expectation. But why do I always come up to discover that it doesn't matter at all? In reality, I'm not in love with you. I'm in love with the thought of you. Sometimes I have to lie to myself in order to keep me, somehow, hopeful. But now I realize you'll never be who I really wanted. But I can't just leave. It's too painful to face the truth. But, one day, I won't even try to hide that I can't take it any longer. I hope you feel lonely as I feel when I'm gone, I hope you feel the same way that I do, so you would regret everything. But that's not me. I'll wish you the best and a "see you soon" message.